Your life is about to change. I know you’ve been journaling about this feeling you have that somethings coming and you couldn’t be more right. You feel this sense of calm, but the kind that comes before a storm.
And that’s exactly what you’re about to walk into. The biggest storm of your little life. You’re going to lose all the things you thought you needed. All the people you thought made you who you are. You’re going to be left with just you.
I think that’s the point though. It is just you, well us. I’ve spent countless nights over the last year crying, no screaming out asking ‘Why did this have to happen? What did I do wrong? And I’ve come to understand the best way to look at it is we’re just on a tough level. We didn’t do anything wrong and this didn’t happen to us it happened for us. That feels like punch in the face when you’re looking at your life in little pieces and that’s okay. It’s okay to be angry, it’s okay to feel like you got the short straw. Ya kinda did. But they’re your straws now and it’s time to drink bitch.
Experience this year and everything it has to offer. Lean in to opportunity that come your way. Know that you’re going to mess it up then clean it up, then mess it up again. Know that no matter what, you will always be able to figure it out.
Let the loneliness you feel over the next year fuel your passion to create change. Let it drive you to heal, to create. Let it be the year of pure selflove. Where you fall so deeply in love with yourself you no longer seek love from those who hurt you.
You’re going to kind of love it in a twisted trauma kid way. Part of you will love your independence and drive whilst still crying yourself to sleep over the people you lost. That’s okay though. You’re allowed to take pride in your work whilst still being upset you had to do it.
The best thing we can do is play it out and know we can never really ‘lose’. Granted we have to repeat a couple of things, go back a few steps.
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